Story Telling!!~

I recently knew a girl.. This girl is a normal girl.. Her name: xxx (sorry i can't tell)..
Her family is ok all is good.. but her love life is scary.. Cannot say scary la.. Just that the feeling is scary j..

She meet her bf for 2 yrs.. In this 2 yr, they have sweet and sour memory.. The guy that she know like to gamble.. 1 day he tell xxx that he lose 4 thousand something.. Ten because of this he need to work triple, work triple is ok.. but while he work he gamble again.. In total, lose 6k.. Then nvm.. My frend keep on stand beside him support him..never think of leaving him alone. He has no idea where to pay off this debt.. The last action is to lend "ah long".. If didn't pay, the interest will raise from 0 to 100... Haiz..

Now everything is settle.. But his bf still go to those place and lie to my frend say he is at home.. At last she know dy, wana him to leave that place immediately.. This is very normal, ppl say "kin gou guai zhong em pa hak meh" really scare he will gamble again.. And everyting repeat again..
But her bf scold her back.. Say do1 tel her is good for her but in my opinion, lie is more hurt than the reality.. She tell me that she willing to know the truth than the lie.. but her bf tell her, every guy also will lie.. Which guy is not lying.. I think he say those words is much much irresponsible.. He is the one who lie and wrong but he blame her gf say that she dono him.. OMG..if my frend really don k him n un him how will she keep on stand vf him for so long?? For me early oledi break jo lo.. She say got tink wana break vs him.. but dono y feel very sad than no break..

Can giv comment??TQ!!

Chatting dayS~

Days went to 3rd week of April... My bro incident had pass 1 yr (chinese calender).. Any1 still remember this incident?? Hope so yah..
Change to this operation team, can feel the stress.. Wana to check rate and check hotel availability.. The hardest are wana to tell agent which hotel we din't highly recommend... Ned to push them away from what they request.. Daily stress.. Erm... this job except daily stress, it will led me to a wonderful chatting with the agent too.. I learn a lot of their language.. Let me teach you all:
1) Salam Sob Bekhir = Hi & Good Morning
2) Salam = Hi
3) Khahesh Mikonam = Welcome
4) Merci Azizam = Thank You
5) Afarin = Bravo
6) Azizma = My Dear
7) Bahoosh = Clever
8) Khodahafez = Bye / God Bless
9) Khoda = GOD
10) Asre Bekheir = Good Afternoon
11) Asr Shoma Ham Bekheir Doost Man = Good Afternoon My Friend
12) Merci Golam Shoma Ham Khasta Nabashid = Nice To Hear From You
13) Khobi = How Are You?
14) Khobam Merci = I'm Fine Thanks
15) Dorost Gofti = You Are Right

So far only these few... Hehe.. Now once open chat with agent, i will use "salam" then continue.. Hehe.. They all say i bravo.. Haha.. I like others language i think they are cute.. What you think??

M3 in this day

2 days after my blog.. Ntg special going on.. Working, home, sleep... Tis is the normal life la. Last 2 night i was alone at home coz ah lok(my bf) got extra work at night in pavillion. At 1st he told me very simple coz onli 1 lot...but BUT they use 2 days to finish the work..(dono izzit "snake" then cannot finish) Nvm lo.. relax at home is ok for me too.. Listen to music, read comic books. (i have lend a lot of comic book to see when free) hehe.. Quite enjoy n luv to have this feel. Last time use to go out cannot stya at home, maybe now oledi old n working..hehe So like to be in peace and relax type. Olden days like to go clubbing (coz new to it, feel very song but now NO more lo..sein dy) I dono my thinking now in my age is suitable or not la, but this is my thinking lo. A bit like ah ma jo..hehe
Y'day got ah lok teman me walk pasar malam.. I can feel that his luv to me is more n more.. Dono leh, just feel it stronger jo.. Hehe!! Last time he won't hold my hand so so long.. But now he willing to hold it until we MUSt separate (toilet, car, house) Haha.. Happy lo..
Thanks GOD to let me have him in my life.. Although he is smoking n like gamble (last time, now no more) but it is enuf that he is real to me. A lot of guy that out look n action is gud to u but at last also hurt u. I hope that this thing won't happen to me..PRAY~

17 Feb 2004 NS C@MP (reverse)

1st step into the camp site, feel terrible (coz i'm late to report myself, those who have report on 16 Feb 2004 were having teir lunch in the cantin. 1st step into the camp is the cantin.. A lot of eye looking at me n my family. I dono which way to head for report, well i chose to ask people than stand tere looking at those eyes. The person incharge of the cantin bring me to the office..OMG, is this office (coz it has onli 3 desks where onli 1 is occupied) I went to the officer to inform him my case and came to report myself. After assigned, i'm in H2 camp. It is the last camp on the farest top of the hill(gal's hill-separate from guy's hill) Bring all my belonging and step into a canvas camp. Every bed has its owner where as the bed that was counted as 1st had no1. I was blur and don't dare to ask regards on the owner, my mom help me to ask 1 of the campmate "mei hua" she speak like "big boss-gal" hehe.. At 1st i feel scare, wah..so rude the people. Everything settle, my parent have a look on the toilet and surrounding. After that, they got to go coz is almosy evening. It is dangerous to drive at nite where a long journey to reach KL. Say goodbye with them with a big big hug and hold my tears. My mom cry (this moment is unforgetable for me) Their car had drove further and further until i can't see tem anymore. I put my step back to my camp, pack things out and prepare for bath. Walao, haven try to take bath with "sarong" and with big group. Dono how and feel someting not right..(haha, live in big city for 17 yr, who will experience bath with "sarong" and bath with big group?) Anyhow, look at how others make it ten follow. If really can't stand can bath in the toilet but the toilet is super small (i 've try b4 until hurt my hand because too narrow and hands will hit the wall when turning) so so after all take bath outside with "sarong" (my mom had prepare an easy "sarong" with rubber on the top which means no ned to tie the "sarong" like Malay) hehe..easy easy!!(don envy, tis onli can be think by my mom) haha.. Rite.. 1st nite, scary and unforgetable. Being call for dinner and going down the hill alone where haven intro myself to my campmate.. "Riang Riang" in my pronounce "gei gei" haha.. is the most killing our heart's insect. It will appear at night and it's all on the dark hill road. When i step down the hill, walking from the left change to the right, then to the center at last use run to reach the cantin( all the road full with "gei gei"- when you step near them or step on them, they won die they will ring/cry/shout: geee..geee..geee..) Try and see, if you 1st time been to a place, and it was dark out tere, you are alone walking down, with those weird sound keep on ring/sreaming/cry/shouting.. what will you express?? Shout? Cry? Run? haha.. Thinking that reach cantin will be great who knows.. Now, don ever think b seeing something terrible.. Know what..the whole cantin is those "gei gei".. heard from tem, "gei gei" can see tey follow lights. Hei, cantin sure bright lo..so so thousand million of tem in there..OMG!! My 1st dinner is like war's skipper.. "gei gei" is bullet.. hehe Sit with my campmate and others people. I remember there is a "gei gei" stick in my shirt, i scare til whole rice being throw and at last "mei hua" help to take it off.. Their sound very terrible. After dinner back to camp and try not to go to toilet. Inside the toilet got a lot of "gei gei"..
The next day separate to groups, each group will have 2 trainer. We have to chose leader for our group. So lucky, all my campmate (chinese) same group with me. So so this build up our frendship. We play, sleep, eat 2gather. I was the oldest in my group (onli gal) if + in guy i'm not.. but i'm very useless 1. keep on sick, so every1 very worry me as specially "mei hua" - big sis, "bee giok" - 2nd sis, "pei yee" - 3rd sis. Gud sis..while guy i met "fue xiang", "ady", "yong han", "kelvin" & "ah foong". "ah foong" and "yong han" were the guys tat k my much much..others also got la..but the most is this 2 lo. At tat time feel warm da. hehe..
Time pass and pass, 9 of us use to jog, play, breakfast, lunch, dinner togather. Coz i sick oways, my relationship with those medic also very super good. If have free time, all 9 of us will just stay in medic and chit chat with medic ppl. Good gang.. funny gang.. Time pass fast, 2 month pass so fast (coz we are too enjoy) is the time we should back to UITM, shah alam..for our last 1 month training. In camp situation change, everyting being guide much (cannot go out, cannot go here n tere. hate!!) BUT BUT with the help of "mei hua" we manage to have our gathering with the guys at night.(but juz outside the park onli) Also enuf la. In our last month every1 expose to luv luv life. Hehe!! relationship from normal ppl, change to frend, change to best best frend at last to couple. Tat time me n ah foong is very super close, 2 of us will share fud or drinks togather. very enjoy but v r not couple (i also dono y). All my frend tel me that he likes me n me too but v din not start to go further. Is this call "you yuan mei fen"?
Time pass by, is time to say bye bye.. We hug n cry coz do not want to separate. haha, really thank GOD, every1 "mei hua" from sitiwan work in KL at last, "bee giok" from taiping study in TAR college.. while guys all is KL ppl. The onli changes is "pei yee" stil in hometown and "ah foong" went back to his frend lifestyle (rupa rupa "ah foong" like his church frend dy-no wonder v cannot start..but i dono d thing is that we suppose have feeling to each other but tey say he got another like d gal) dono la, oledi pass.. Our gang now, still the same. "fue xiang" n "bee giok" is 1 pair and now working happily in their area, "mei hua" oledi marry n stay in setiawan, "kelvin" buz vf work, "yong han" working in computer shop vf his lolver", "ady" marry too, "ah foong" in oversea for study, "me" hehe same lo..no change
GOOD EXPERIENCE!! GREAT TO BORN IN 1986

2008 incident

01/01/2008 went to countdown with frend but at last "lose in the jungle (people)"haha.. nvm nvm, lose also nvm BUT the most terrible is that i hav LOST my PHONE too. my Z610i(sob sob) i jus buy and use for 2 month only, lost jo.. BAD year. 1st day of 2008 oledi lost a phone. Dare not to tink any more. Went home alone, cry for days for my luv phone.
Above oledi stated 2008 not a good yr for me.. Lost phone on the 1st day and lost my beloved bro (20 Apr 2008), make everything change. My thinking and my action. Use to speed while driving, use to play violence on the road..haha NOW no more lo, scare.. Day day wondering can i wake up the next morning? Thank GOD that i can wake up.. Thinking what is the feeling when die? Did i still remember everything? How will it feel? remember on my bro funeral, there are people able to see my bro standing beside his coffin. DO you think he know what is happen to him? Can he hear that we are very sad? Will he able to hear our conversation? He can walk..erm floating to everywhere? This is what i keep on floating in my mind. Before sleep i will say thanks and think a lot of this question. My brother accident really change me and this is the news that i can't accept until now. Remember he told me on 18 Apr 2008, he will be going to climb "lembing mountain-kuantan" with his frend. I have no comment coz ntg wrong ma. But got some arguement b4 he step out, he did not use luggage bag to fill in his shirt, he use plastic bag. So i say him: house got so many luggage bag you do1 use, why wana take plastic bag so ugly. At last onli i say he continue do. Haiz, nvm lo!!He like (big jo ma) BUT i don't know that this is the last time i argue vf him. Form young til the last day i use to argue with him, no mater on what tings. On fud-he like to steal my fud and don let me have it, On tv-like to change my tv programme, all tis lead us big fight, i remember than we've fighted where almost use knife tim. At last ntg la, if anyting will c us in newspaper jo lo..haha.. watever we also argue and rampas. Dono why, olden people say "long hu dou" dragon n tiger sure fight d.. SURE?? Although we fight n rampas everyting this does not means we are not close.. we argue coz we are to alike, he like the tings i like,, i like the tings he like. So So.. Sometimes, will share feeling and will seeks help from each other.. He will wait me home if i back home late.. So sweet~
No more now.. No such ting happen.. Everyting change from the time his body went into the flame.. The most hard feeling is that saw his body in the hospital, recognized that is him.. with no cloth onli short pants. Whole body hard, icy, cool. Blood still fresh on his head. Can't stand the situation, onli non stop call him n cry.. B4 dept to Kuantan to recognized the body, oledi pray n set in mind it is not him. certainly not. Fate is fate no matter how we change not to think it is FATE dy, cannot change. All hope blow off when saw him lying tere vfout movement. I know that cant change dy.. NO more hope. Continue his document, take back his phone and belongings. Transfer him back to KL, sitting in the "coffin" car keep on calling his name ask his soul to follow us. Cry like hell!! reach home 12am while ntg being done (those setting) he being leave in the car while we checking on the setting. He's being transfer out from car while i hav to search for his picture that can b put in front of the coffin. I found a lot but not suitable. At last use a photo take show his head "senget" because this photo is the take with other gal. No choice co he don hav others. Praying ceremony start morning, phone call looking for him keep on ringing (his boss) call to us n ask y my bro din report to work, i tel him he is not here anymore, he thought im kidding.. At last he believe coz i cry non stop. I can't tel out like normal ppl that my bro has past away. Hard feel come out faster than ever. Relative all come n advise us. Ask us not to sad. But non of tem manage to stand not to sad. Every1 cry when step into my house OR after seeing my bro in the coffin. His relationship vf the relative is good so every1 know him much.. At nite, frends (church) and his best frend all come to pay teir respect.. All cry like hell, then tey went up to my bro room to keep his tings and say which to take some of his ting s rememberance. I say ok, can take watever things. Last day, my bro facial expression change from reverage expression to smiling look. I tink he was satisfy and happy that his frend all come pay teir respect and all relative too. Mayb he satisfy dy. So he smile n left. Last day, got musical come n i wish tem to play SHE song coz my bro luv tem very much. While play d SHE cd wen sending him to the fire burial in cheras. My parent cant go, his "heng dai" help to take up his coffin to the car (coz tey say wana help seng chau-my bro to do someting) really best frend. me n my little bro who is d 1 who start the prayer followed behind. Reach the fire burial place, prayer start and the monk tel us to call his name when his coffin being move down to the fire, after prayer, the monk press down the button and we gather to the area n call out his name.. My face all cover by tears. I faint at last!!
This is what i get in yr 2008, 4 yrs after my grandfather this is the most unacceptable experience i had. I don dare to tink on what is my future and tis n tat. If i can live 1 more day i will do s much s i can..

Reverse~blogger

13 Feb 2004 dinner with my grandpa & all the relative (we, youngster help tem to celebrate OLD FOLKS VALENTINE NIGHT)..Coz i hav to join national service camp on 16 Feb 2004 so tast nite my grandpa tel me a lot of tings. Hold my hand close to his heart and advise me to take very good care on myself when joining the camp. Make me cry a lot coz i don feel like joining the camp (to me that camp is very super scary-but at last do1 end the camp, coz meet a lot of frend that willing to take k each other good experience) The next day 14 Feb 2004 (Valentine day-although no bf but still ajak a group of frend outing) on the way to my outing, receive a super emergency news. My grandpa stop breathing while on the way to hospital. I'm blank i dono what to do and say. My frend head the car to HUKM, my grandfather is in the emergency room. Doctor say will try best to save him, doctor say he had stop breathing jus now so now rescueing him. I pray hard that he can wake up and talk to me, cook porridge for me when i'm sick. Bring me out gai gai, drive me back from schol, drive me back to overnight in his house (happy stay with grandparent coz more freedom, they will give what we ask for) BUT i manage to saw him with a white cloth wrapped over him. Tis is d 1st time I saw this scenery. I dono want to use what situation to descripe the situation. In movie we can saw it easily, but not personal experience can't express the feeling. My dad say not to cry, buddhist (same s christian hope not to cry must smile to accept-if not the late people will not leave) who can do it? our beloved not here anymore, do you think normal people can stand not to cry. After getting know, we can cry by dropping our tears without sound. I cant accept the truth coz he is the person who chat vf me so so much y'day nite, how COME? In his funeral, i stand beside him to accompany him until his last day (16 Feb 2004-the day that i should report to my camp) I remember the hard feeling i have on the last day when we have to turn over when they close the coffin. Once the coffin is close means everything end.. I struggle with them i do1 to end i want to be with him. At last, silly very silly..HOW can a dead person stay alive? follow to the grave yard end of the ceremony.. My dad is the biggest so he commit every prayer.. Sadly report to camp on 17 Feb 2004, my uncle n my grandma, n my family drive me to Gua Musang camp site..(will write on NS experience in the next blog) 1 week after (i had sick teruk), i have a dream from my grandpa ask me to be strong and take good k. He want me to be happy and help to take k my family n my grandma. This dream continuosly the 2nd nite. In the dream i was walking along a long path where tere were many people resting on their bed. Until the end of the path, is my grandpa (1st dream is waving to me-welcoming me) (2nd dream, he is resting in his bed while i call him to wake up) the message he give me was the same. Is just that the action that he show is not same. The same path, the same situation where every1 is smiling towards me happily so do my grandpa. I call back to my parent to tel them regards this dream, tey say no1 had all this dream. Ask me really have to take k and my grandpa was looking on me everytime every minute. The dream last for 2 nite onli, day after no news from him. Wondering where he go? Will he continue by my side? Will he no that i'm so suffer in camp(keep on sick-coz of weather; morning til evening super hot but nite very super cool)

Losing a luv 1 has super great impact.