昨天。。未来！！

昨天是我今生最大的惊喜。。第一，一年前我弟弟离开我们。。现在第二，今年的昨天：我妈妈确定有乳癌《第3期了〉听了以后，眼泪就不断地流下。。无法控制。。第1个想到的就是曾维乐，我打给他和他说。。他劝我一定要好好照顾自己，然后才能照顾别人。。谢谢你！！

昨天知道后，头脑一片空白。。不懂该做什么好，不懂怎样，很乱。。满脑子全是死，死，死和死！！好像除了这个就没有别的选者。。还有别的吗？？说来听听。。 然后很自然的想不要工作了，在家里帮忙。。呵呵！！原来当我要开口时，我爸爸已经是那样想了。。我爸爸说的和我想的都一样。。然后就要跑去和妈妈说。。奇怪，她也这样觉得。。那我就松了口气。。谢谢你们的体谅和谅解。。如果不说是一家人都没人信。。因为3个人想的都是一样。。晚上没什么能睡，可是曾维乐一直在那里吵。。说我这样的那样的。。所以就的乖乖去睡觉咯。。睡觉前还想好了，明天辞职该怎样讲呢！！无聊对吗？？或许我对这里刚刚有了一点点地好感吧。。

今天，到了公司就立刻打辞职信。。等到我上司来后就交给他。。我又想了下下。。后来鼓起勇气和他说清楚。。他问我为什么，那我就直接说我妈妈的事。。他叫我不用太过负面，有人可以救活的。。放心！！他还和我说他已经安排好了要我带领团，可是我现在和他说我辞职他吓了下。。有点沮丧的感觉。。我说：我会回来的，如果到时这里还要人我一定会回来的。。这里，人是很不怎么。。。。。（楼下）可是整体来说他们是不错的。。楼上的人，给很多快乐给别人。。和他们一起好像中学生。。呵呵（好像读书那样啦）

离开了这公司，我的生活就要有很大很大的改变。。不常出pasar帮手的我，现在每天早上都要出了。。不能让妈妈在工作。。以前的我靠着爸妈在pasar的生活而养大我。。现在和未来的我是要在pasar里报答他们了。。我也不敢想未来的我是否会一直呆在pasar里。。我能吗？？那我梦想呢？？会怎样呢？？

I$ M0ND@Y @G@!N

Monday again.. Welcome back to work la.. Happy Deepavali!! hehe

I have a wonderful weekends last week... from Friday, my parent 25th years anniversary.. Having dinner with all relative and friends.. This time, Ah Lok join me too.. That day also his 26th B'day leh.. hehe.. Makan, Karaoke, Make fun with my parent, wish them and etc.. very happy and can feel teir sweetness... Long long time since my brother not around, 1st time stay in super happy environment.. After that, sure went to the 2nd round la.. When pub..ing hahaz... Ah Choong and Ah Lok sharing the same b'day so I thought that night pub..ing sure a lot of ppl.. hoho, but I was wrong.. There is a lot of ppl tere, but not recog d.. Our table just got 5-6 ppl onli.. OMG~ and the worst is "I'M THE ONLY GAL" shit la.. y ge?? y like tis ge?? I wonder Ah Choong and Ah Lok no power jo.. hehe..

Sat.. sleep in the morning lo.. Then, do my own things till evening.. went out to Ah Lok house.. then out to Clubbing.. Tis time, really fun.. I have not try a super fun clubbing since I club vf them.. As I say, tey very sien.. Onli stick in the chair and table.. In stead this time, i go dance vf others table d gal.. hoho.. He can't angry me, coz William's GF bring me go d.. wakaka!! v dance dance n dance non stop.. til about 3am ten sin go home.. walao T!R3D T!R3D lo.. very T!R3D!!

Sunday.. Morning and afternoon.. breakfast and lunch vf Ah Lok as usual.. Then went to get a hair cut.. Really short and not nice.. Will not go to the saloon anymore.. Cannot lo.. Really bad.. Hahaz!! Ah Lok la, that shop is his bos d wife d.. So he went there cut.. but my hair, i tink i prefer PROF to cut for me lo.. hehe.. Not like now.. dono like wat.. haiz~ At night, have to attend wedding dinner.. OMG~ alcohol again.. scare dy!! Before entering the restaurant door.. My grandma go tell ppl Ah Lok is her "mei loi xun sai" hahaz.. really funny name.. hahaz.. cannot stop laughing on the name.. Around 11pm sin reach home.. Tired weekends..

Monday again.. SO fast.. at 1st good feeling.. BUT not NOW jo.. coz my 栋梁 sick jo.. now in China d hospital.. I'm moody and sad lo.. Feel wana go find him n k bout him.. but he is in CHINA.. SOB SOB :( sad sad lo.. HE yau 1 kind d la..dono how to take k d.. day day also c him sick here n tere.. but being an artist is like tis d leh!!coz tey ned to "ngai ye",not enuf sleep and fud also ned to control.. ten yau on diet.. Really "san fu" him.. kesian!! love his song so so much.. will keep on support and give him strenght.. YES!! he is back.. on 30 OCTOBER 2009 in Stadium Badminton Cheras.. hoho.. I know the place much much.. hehe.. I'm going too~

Y3st3rd@y is TODAY!!

Yesterday.. Normal Tuesday.. But I have to sleep super early.. Coz my maid had gone back to Camobia.. OMG~ Nightmare coming after M3 jo la.. charm!!! HATE!!
Yesterday, have Sushi for my lunch leh.. Very super full.. But ok once awhile la.. Huh, after sushi start to regret jo.. coz today I sin go fitness.. Yesterday no go fitness at all.. Super regret, y ate so much.. huh!!
At night, watch TVB drama then hop into my bed at 9++pm but turn till 11pm sin can sleep.. Izzit late bedding practice?? coz usually I rest at 12am.. So suddenly change to 9pm.. Walao, can't sleep in..

Today, morning @ 3.30am jiu rain rain jo.. really wants to heard my dad says : V r off today.. Then I jiu can have my comfort oi oi this morning.. Damn sleepy.. But he din say a word.. So i need to wake up at 5am to help my parent to prepare market fud.. Aiyoyo, sleep at 11++ wake up 5am.. Who can understand my feeling and tired NOW?? After helping.. stil can take a nap for 30mins b4 start up to clean the house.. I need to sweap the floor, mop the florr and brush the kithcen floor.. It takes me 1 hours to finish it.. So i took a longer nap til 7.30am.. wahaha.. That time is stil raining oh.. No kidding, really miss my bed NOW..
After clean up, very satisfied lo.. Coz can feel "ci ci ci" sound on the floor.. wahoho.. Tomorrow and the next day I have to be up at 5am also.. OMG~ help me.. but I will tahan d.. I swear.. Coz I wana test my health.. For tahan, jiu need to sleep at 9pm lo.. Tonight after fitness will sleep til next morning.. hehe..

UNH@PPY S@TURD@Y!!!

Me again.. to describe my unhappy.. Althought I'm ok now, but I just can't keep myself STOP thinking on the unhappy moment..

Last Saturday after house warming party (my cousin sis), Ah Lok and me and his frend went to pub..ing but it is like clubbing place.. At first I tell Ah Lok i wish to go disco more.. coz super long time since i step in once in my life.. In that building, down part is d pub and the 2nd level is the disco.. So i make a joke says that I wish to go UP tere more than down.. Coz went clubbing vf tem is a super sien d idea.. Coz tey will onli stick their "batok" on the chair.. No ppl dance vf me.. SIEN!!

About 2am, they order 3 Blank Label finished dy lo.. So some1 suggest, y not go UP play again.. Their "plau" is = "shake head" lo.. Once I heard they wana go, I oledi tell Ah Lok i do1 go.. I wana go home.. Coz i scare I cant tahan.. (I mean cant tahan c them have those things) I dono y, I just cant tahan seeing them harming themselves.. My heart will be very PAINFUL.. like DYING!! I prefer die than seeing them like this.. I thought I can push myself to accept.. But at last I pull out.. I CANT, I just CANT.. That time, I cant stop blaming myself that tell him that I wish to go disco more than clubbing.. NOW I super regret.. I want change, I will like clubbing more than disco.. I SWEAR to God, I will not step into Disco anymore.. And I wont HIM to step into those place either.. I SWEAR I won't..

I'm very pain that time.. I really wish to die because I hurt them.. If I din say so, Ah Lok also won't take it as granted.. He curi curi tak half pill in front of me.. Of coz, say curi curi means under table he accpet the pill from Ah Choong.. I saw it.. I really SAW it.. and he know i saw it too.. I went to the toilet, and my tears start rolling down.. Like tab water.. I slap myself for being so childish.. I slap myself more n more.. It is painful.. but my heart lagi pain.. He ask ppl to look for me.. But i do1 to go out.. I cant take up the challenge to face all of them.. At last, I push myself out (coz there are many more ppl wish to use the toilet) I scare being slap by ppl.. When I went out, I start to ... i don't wish them to care me.. I don't wish to stand near them.. I saw their head is going left n right.. All vomit like hell, coz they drink too much during clubbing time (Downstaire)- I know this during Sunday lunch vf Ah Choong.. From his info, all can't drive home at time too.. All is high n blur like hell..

WHY WHY WHY?? WHY wana like this?? just cant like clubbing.. DISCO this word is what?? Izzit any setting that DISCO is take PILL places?? Izzit written there?? Izzit written in somewhr else?? Why Why Why.. I really have a BAD BAD SATURDAY.. I HATE it.. I HATE it!!~

Holidays Holidays Come here babe~

Miss my holiday so so much.. When is my holiday?? When When?

During lunch time, planning vf my colleague to go pangkor island.. go on weekends d la.. hehe.. but dono when.. ONLY say j.. but i really wana go play play lo.. This morning, I saw in FB got ppl go Sibu Island Resort.. Walao, she take d picture really nice lo.. Really can't imagine got such a nice beach that i have ever thought of it.. and for sure never been before la.. Is in JB.. great beach.. So i log into the website to check it out.. RM 500++ for 1R but coz the reservation web is under maintenance, i wonder RM 500++ is for what.. Will check it out and will visit there very soon..

As per my mom, now if can go play jiu go play la.. Coz a lot of place also got "punishment" jo.. so very scary.. Dono when til my turn.. So So .. got time got saving jiu use half of tem enjoy the remaining..

My 1st intro, visit Sibu Island Resort la.. Really nice and value to pay a visit..

03 October 2009

Remember this date?? M00NC@K3S F3ST!V@L lol.. How you spend it with family??

On the Saturday night, have dinner with family ONLY.. but the unusual is Ah Lok and my parent frends come to join along.. Make to whole environment different dy.. Thank you for Ah Lok's mummy lo.. Coz she went back to Ipoh during this festive, so he jiu can come over here to have dinner togather.. Hehe..

Got Fish, Got pig' hand, Got "bak cham kai" (all cook by my grandma). She is good in cooking all this stuff.. My mom being kalah by her.. hoho~ whoever know my mom remember keep this secret yah.. wakaka

After dinner, continue to 2nd part.. This year no party in this festive, coz no much mood after some incident.. Just a simple family dinner.. 2nd part is.. SING K la.. My parent wana show off uch much that tey have brought a new MIC.. 200++ i tink.. But good lo, nice voice.. yau no ned shout so much.. just nice for slow voice ppl.. SING K till 10pm++ ten all oi oi lo.. left me n ah lok in the living room doing ntg..

I say i wana go "tian hou gong" to walk walk n c c.. but he jiu received call from his buddy ask him out to somewhr.. Ten he jiu go off jo la.. My mooncake festival for this year is very very super NORMAL lo.. ntg to be glad about.. HATE him lo.. Leave me alone oi oi at home while he go happy happy.. but at 12am like tat he call me up la.. says that he at home jo la.. hehe..

H0L!D@Y part 3

Come to the end of my holiday la.. Early in the morning get morning call from that stupid.. Hate him so so much.. Night so tired dy.. stil do1 let ppl sleep more.. Willam and Ah Choong jiu gud la.. Sleep separately.. Me n ah lok jiu cham la.. hav to stuck in 1 single bed.. really suffer.. but coz too tired, also can sleep at last..

Morning, check out then went to eat dim sum lo.. Nom Nom Nom~ yummy.. my favourite leh.. but if u saw those ppl standing n looking for TABLE, i tink in your mind is tat "run away from here" really terrible.. The que, the ppl.. Walao.. Tis is call holidays in Ipoh.. Luckily, tey still stand and wait for places.. hehe.. Finally, get seated. Good Good.. Enjoy meal.. Coz too hungry, so jus eat (no take picture)..

After that we heding back to KL lo.. "Xun Bian" go Sam Poh Caves bai bai.. Hav to lo.. Ten i ask to protect my family and our journey.. Great lo, i cry a lot.. coz in there really smoky.. til really cannot tahan.. Do u c ppl cry sambil praying o not?? me jiu is like tat la.. Really paiseh lo.. haha..

Then, next station sure "bo lok" station la.. Go buy some "bo lok" back to KL for my family and ah lok's family of coz.. RM 50 for 2 big big "bo lok"..really damn big n damn heavy.. Both add up i tink more heavy than me.. (hehe XD)

Next and last, went to Gua Tempurung.. But cant manage to join the river track which the time from 9 - 11am and another is 9 - 12pm onli.. we reach tere bout 12++ so cannot join jo lo.. Damn dissappointed lo.. oledi tell tem, got time but no1 wana listen to me.. HATE tem!!! I promise i will go there in s short period.. It won drag me long time to "re"-go that place.. I MUST go for the wet track.. I MUST I MUST!!!! Walk into the cave, tem jiu bla bla bla.. say hot la, say ntg to c la, say not syok la.. wat also tey say.. sikit sikit also cant tahan.. but it is not kidding.. It is really hot in tere.. coz hav to do climbing a lot.. sweat really roll down like non close water tab.. Used 1H 45Min to complete the track.. Out to the cave, lagi worst.. more hot than inside.. coz SUN in on..

Faster make up our way back to the car for aircond.. hehe.. I took some picture.. will upload up tp FB.. I tink i have some of their naked picture.. hehe.. I'm not sure but u guyz wait n c ba la.. wakaka~

Then went to last stop whr we have our so called lunch (4pm++) Can any1 tell me at 4pm++ shud name it wat?? mayb high-tea.. XD have a special meal called "duck's drumstick mee" walao.. 1st time saw these meal.. It is really a duck's drumstick inside the bowl.. Make it hard for me to eat the mee.. Too big.. but the taste jiu so so only la.. but mostly ppl wil say GOOD~ I wonder if is tat i'm too chossy OR wat..

Back to kl @ 7pm++ use DUKE highway.. very fast lo + no car car d.. Road yau big big.. no ned 15 mins from Damansara to Ampang.. Great fast.. Go home, take bath.. Ten oi oi time lo.. tired tired tired!!!~

My H@PPY and UNH@PPY h)L!D@Y finished and end jo lo.. sob sob~~ waiting waiting for next holiday to come but calender shows negative dy.. haiz~ but holidays can be create d.. hehe~ hoho~ haha~ keke~