W3LCOM3 to MY world!!

昨天。。未来！！

2009-10-26T22:54:00.000-07:00

昨天是我今生最大的惊喜。。第一，一年前我弟弟离开我们。。现在第二，今年的昨天：我妈妈确定有乳癌《第3期了〉听了以后，眼泪就不断地流下。。无法控制。。第1个想到的就是曾维乐，我打给他和他说。。他劝我一定要好好照顾自己，然后才能照顾别人。。谢谢你！！

昨天知道后，头脑一片空白。。不懂该做什么好，不懂怎样，很乱。。满脑子全是死，死，死和死！！好像除了这个就没有别的选者。。还有别的吗？？说来听听。。然后很自然的想不要工作了，在家里帮忙。。呵呵！！原来当我要开口时，我爸爸已经是那样想了。。我爸爸说的和我想的都一样。。然后就要跑去和妈妈说。。奇怪，她也这样觉得。。那我就松了口气。。谢谢你们的体谅和谅解。。如果不说是一家人都没人信。。因为3个人想的都是一样。。晚上没什么能睡，可是曾维乐一直在那里吵。。说我这样的那样的。。所以就的乖乖去睡觉咯。。睡觉前还想好了，明天辞职该怎样讲呢！！无聊对吗？？或许我对这里刚刚有了一点点地好感吧。。

今天，到了公司就立刻打辞职信。。等到我上司来后就交给他。。我又想了下下。。后来鼓起勇气和他说清楚。。他问我为什么，那我就直接说我妈妈的事。。他叫我不用太过负面，有人可以救活的。。放心！！他还和我说他已经安排好了要我带领团，可是我现在和他说我辞职他吓了下。。有点沮丧的感觉。。我说：我会回来的，如果到时这里还要人我一定会回来的。。这里，人是很不怎么。。。。。（楼下）可是整体来说他们是不错的。。楼上的人，给很多快乐给别人。。和他们一起好像中学生。。呵呵（好像读书那样啦）

离开了这公司，我的生活就要有很大很大的改变。。不常出pasar帮手的我，现在每天早上都要出了。。不能让妈妈在工作。。以前的我靠着爸妈在pasar的生活而养大我。。现在和未来的我是要在pasar里报答他们了。。我也不敢想未来的我是否会一直呆在pasar里。。我能吗？？那我梦想呢？？会怎样呢？？

I$ M0ND@Y @G@!N

2009-10-18T21:37:00.000-07:00

Monday again.. Welcome back to work la.. Happy Deepavali!! hehe

I have a wonderful weekends last week... from Friday, my parent 25th years anniversary.. Having dinner with all relative and friends.. This time, Ah Lok join me too.. That day also his 26th B'day leh.. hehe.. Makan, Karaoke, Make fun with my parent, wish them and etc.. very happy and can feel teir sweetness... Long long time since my brother not around, 1st time stay in super happy environment.. After that, sure went to the 2nd round la.. When pub..ing hahaz... Ah Choong and Ah Lok sharing the same b'day so I thought that night pub..ing sure a lot of ppl.. hoho, but I was wrong.. There is a lot of ppl tere, but not recog d.. Our table just got 5-6 ppl onli.. OMG~ and the worst is "I'M THE ONLY GAL" shit la.. y ge?? y like tis ge?? I wonder Ah Choong and Ah Lok no power jo.. hehe..

Sat.. sleep in the morning lo.. Then, do my own things till evening.. went out to Ah Lok house.. then out to Clubbing.. Tis time, really fun.. I have not try a super fun clubbing since I club vf them.. As I say, tey very sien.. Onli stick in the chair and table.. In stead this time, i go dance vf others table d gal.. hoho.. He can't angry me, coz William's GF bring me go d.. wakaka!! v dance dance n dance non stop.. til about 3am ten sin go home.. walao T!R3D T!R3D lo.. very T!R3D!!

Sunday.. Morning and afternoon.. breakfast and lunch vf Ah Lok as usual.. Then went to get a hair cut.. Really short and not nice.. Will not go to the saloon anymore.. Cannot lo.. Really bad.. Hahaz!! Ah Lok la, that shop is his bos d wife d.. So he went there cut.. but my hair, i tink i prefer PROF to cut for me lo.. hehe.. Not like now.. dono like wat.. haiz~ At night, have to attend wedding dinner.. OMG~ alcohol again.. scare dy!! Before entering the restaurant door.. My grandma go tell ppl Ah Lok is her "mei loi xun sai" hahaz.. really funny name.. hahaz.. cannot stop laughing on the name.. Around 11pm sin reach home.. Tired weekends..

Monday again.. SO fast.. at 1st good feeling.. BUT not NOW jo.. coz my 栋梁 sick jo.. now in China d hospital.. I'm moody and sad lo.. Feel wana go find him n k bout him.. but he is in CHINA.. SOB SOB :( sad sad lo.. HE yau 1 kind d la..dono how to take k d.. day day also c him sick here n tere.. but being an artist is like tis d leh!!coz tey ned to "ngai ye",not enuf sleep and fud also ned to control.. ten yau on diet.. Really "san fu" him.. kesian!! love his song so so much.. will keep on support and give him strenght.. YES!! he is back.. on 30 OCTOBER 2009 in Stadium Badminton Cheras.. hoho.. I know the place much much.. hehe.. I'm going too~

Y3st3rd@y is TODAY!!

2009-10-13T23:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday.. Normal Tuesday.. But I have to sleep super early.. Coz my maid had gone back to Camobia.. OMG~ Nightmare coming after M3 jo la.. charm!!! HATE!!
Yesterday, have Sushi for my lunch leh.. Very super full.. But ok once awhile la.. Huh, after sushi start to regret jo.. coz today I sin go fitness.. Yesterday no go fitness at all.. Super regret, y ate so much.. huh!!
At night, watch TVB drama then hop into my bed at 9++pm but turn till 11pm sin can sleep.. Izzit late bedding practice?? coz usually I rest at 12am.. So suddenly change to 9pm.. Walao, can't sleep in..

Today, morning @ 3.30am jiu rain rain jo.. really wants to heard my dad says : V r off today.. Then I jiu can have my comfort oi oi this morning.. Damn sleepy.. But he din say a word.. So i need to wake up at 5am to help my parent to prepare market fud.. Aiyoyo, sleep at 11++ wake up 5am.. Who can understand my feeling and tired NOW?? After helping.. stil can take a nap for 30mins b4 start up to clean the house.. I need to sweap the floor, mop the florr and brush the kithcen floor.. It takes me 1 hours to finish it.. So i took a longer nap til 7.30am.. wahaha.. That time is stil raining oh.. No kidding, really miss my bed NOW..
After clean up, very satisfied lo.. Coz can feel "ci ci ci" sound on the floor.. wahoho.. Tomorrow and the next day I have to be up at 5am also.. OMG~ help me.. but I will tahan d.. I swear.. Coz I wana test my health.. For tahan, jiu need to sleep at 9pm lo.. Tonight after fitness will sleep til next morning.. hehe..

UNH@PPY S@TURD@Y!!!

2009-10-11T20:22:00.001-07:00

Me again.. to describe my unhappy.. Althought I'm ok now, but I just can't keep myself STOP thinking on the unhappy moment..

Last Saturday after house warming party (my cousin sis), Ah Lok and me and his frend went to pub..ing but it is like clubbing place.. At first I tell Ah Lok i wish to go disco more.. coz super long time since i step in once in my life.. In that building, down part is d pub and the 2nd level is the disco.. So i make a joke says that I wish to go UP tere more than down.. Coz went clubbing vf tem is a super sien d idea.. Coz tey will onli stick their "batok" on the chair.. No ppl dance vf me.. SIEN!!

About 2am, they order 3 Blank Label finished dy lo.. So some1 suggest, y not go UP play again.. Their "plau" is = "shake head" lo.. Once I heard they wana go, I oledi tell Ah Lok i do1 go.. I wana go home.. Coz i scare I cant tahan.. (I mean cant tahan c them have those things) I dono y, I just cant tahan seeing them harming themselves.. My heart will be very PAINFUL.. like DYING!! I prefer die than seeing them like this.. I thought I can push myself to accept.. But at last I pull out.. I CANT, I just CANT.. That time, I cant stop blaming myself that tell him that I wish to go disco more than clubbing.. NOW I super regret.. I want change, I will like clubbing more than disco.. I SWEAR to God, I will not step into Disco anymore.. And I wont HIM to step into those place either.. I SWEAR I won't..

I'm very pain that time.. I really wish to die because I hurt them.. If I din say so, Ah Lok also won't take it as granted.. He curi curi tak half pill in front of me.. Of coz, say curi curi means under table he accpet the pill from Ah Choong.. I saw it.. I really SAW it.. and he know i saw it too.. I went to the toilet, and my tears start rolling down.. Like tab water.. I slap myself for being so childish.. I slap myself more n more.. It is painful.. but my heart lagi pain.. He ask ppl to look for me.. But i do1 to go out.. I cant take up the challenge to face all of them.. At last, I push myself out (coz there are many more ppl wish to use the toilet) I scare being slap by ppl.. When I went out, I start to ... i don't wish them to care me.. I don't wish to stand near them.. I saw their head is going left n right.. All vomit like hell, coz they drink too much during clubbing time (Downstaire)- I know this during Sunday lunch vf Ah Choong.. From his info, all can't drive home at time too.. All is high n blur like hell..

WHY WHY WHY?? WHY wana like this?? just cant like clubbing.. DISCO this word is what?? Izzit any setting that DISCO is take PILL places?? Izzit written there?? Izzit written in somewhr else?? Why Why Why.. I really have a BAD BAD SATURDAY.. I HATE it.. I HATE it!!~

Holidays Holidays Come here babe~

2009-10-08T00:56:00.000-07:00

Miss my holiday so so much.. When is my holiday?? When When?

During lunch time, planning vf my colleague to go pangkor island.. go on weekends d la.. hehe.. but dono when.. ONLY say j.. but i really wana go play play lo.. This morning, I saw in FB got ppl go Sibu Island Resort.. Walao, she take d picture really nice lo.. Really can't imagine got such a nice beach that i have ever thought of it.. and for sure never been before la.. Is in JB.. great beach.. So i log into the website to check it out.. RM 500++ for 1R but coz the reservation web is under maintenance, i wonder RM 500++ is for what.. Will check it out and will visit there very soon..

As per my mom, now if can go play jiu go play la.. Coz a lot of place also got "punishment" jo.. so very scary.. Dono when til my turn.. So So .. got time got saving jiu use half of tem enjoy the remaining..

My 1st intro, visit Sibu Island Resort la.. Really nice and value to pay a visit..

03 October 2009

2009-10-08T00:49:00.000-07:00

Remember this date?? M00NC@K3S F3ST!V@L lol.. How you spend it with family??

On the Saturday night, have dinner with family ONLY.. but the unusual is Ah Lok and my parent frends come to join along.. Make to whole environment different dy.. Thank you for Ah Lok's mummy lo.. Coz she went back to Ipoh during this festive, so he jiu can come over here to have dinner togather.. Hehe..

Got Fish, Got pig' hand, Got "bak cham kai" (all cook by my grandma). She is good in cooking all this stuff.. My mom being kalah by her.. hoho~ whoever know my mom remember keep this secret yah.. wakaka

After dinner, continue to 2nd part.. This year no party in this festive, coz no much mood after some incident.. Just a simple family dinner.. 2nd part is.. SING K la.. My parent wana show off uch much that tey have brought a new MIC.. 200++ i tink.. But good lo, nice voice.. yau no ned shout so much.. just nice for slow voice ppl.. SING K till 10pm++ ten all oi oi lo.. left me n ah lok in the living room doing ntg..

I say i wana go "tian hou gong" to walk walk n c c.. but he jiu received call from his buddy ask him out to somewhr.. Ten he jiu go off jo la.. My mooncake festival for this year is very very super NORMAL lo.. ntg to be glad about.. HATE him lo.. Leave me alone oi oi at home while he go happy happy.. but at 12am like tat he call me up la.. says that he at home jo la.. hehe..

H0L!D@Y part 3

2009-10-08T00:33:00.000-07:00

Come to the end of my holiday la.. Early in the morning get morning call from that stupid.. Hate him so so much.. Night so tired dy.. stil do1 let ppl sleep more.. Willam and Ah Choong jiu gud la.. Sleep separately.. Me n ah lok jiu cham la.. hav to stuck in 1 single bed.. really suffer.. but coz too tired, also can sleep at last..

Morning, check out then went to eat dim sum lo.. Nom Nom Nom~ yummy.. my favourite leh.. but if u saw those ppl standing n looking for TABLE, i tink in your mind is tat "run away from here" really terrible.. The que, the ppl.. Walao.. Tis is call holidays in Ipoh.. Luckily, tey still stand and wait for places.. hehe.. Finally, get seated. Good Good.. Enjoy meal.. Coz too hungry, so jus eat (no take picture)..

After that we heding back to KL lo.. "Xun Bian" go Sam Poh Caves bai bai.. Hav to lo.. Ten i ask to protect my family and our journey.. Great lo, i cry a lot.. coz in there really smoky.. til really cannot tahan.. Do u c ppl cry sambil praying o not?? me jiu is like tat la.. Really paiseh lo.. haha..

Then, next station sure "bo lok" station la.. Go buy some "bo lok" back to KL for my family and ah lok's family of coz.. RM 50 for 2 big big "bo lok"..really damn big n damn heavy.. Both add up i tink more heavy than me.. (hehe XD)

Next and last, went to Gua Tempurung.. But cant manage to join the river track which the time from 9 - 11am and another is 9 - 12pm onli.. we reach tere bout 12++ so cannot join jo lo.. Damn dissappointed lo.. oledi tell tem, got time but no1 wana listen to me.. HATE tem!!! I promise i will go there in s short period.. It won drag me long time to "re"-go that place.. I MUST go for the wet track.. I MUST I MUST!!!! Walk into the cave, tem jiu bla bla bla.. say hot la, say ntg to c la, say not syok la.. wat also tey say.. sikit sikit also cant tahan.. but it is not kidding.. It is really hot in tere.. coz hav to do climbing a lot.. sweat really roll down like non close water tab.. Used 1H 45Min to complete the track.. Out to the cave, lagi worst.. more hot than inside.. coz SUN in on..

Faster make up our way back to the car for aircond.. hehe.. I took some picture.. will upload up tp FB.. I tink i have some of their naked picture.. hehe.. I'm not sure but u guyz wait n c ba la.. wakaka~

Then went to last stop whr we have our so called lunch (4pm++) Can any1 tell me at 4pm++ shud name it wat?? mayb high-tea.. XD have a special meal called "duck's drumstick mee" walao.. 1st time saw these meal.. It is really a duck's drumstick inside the bowl.. Make it hard for me to eat the mee.. Too big.. but the taste jiu so so only la.. but mostly ppl wil say GOOD~ I wonder if is tat i'm too chossy OR wat..

Back to kl @ 7pm++ use DUKE highway.. very fast lo + no car car d.. Road yau big big.. no ned 15 mins from Damansara to Ampang.. Great fast.. Go home, take bath.. Ten oi oi time lo.. tired tired tired!!!~

My H@PPY and UNH@PPY h)L!D@Y finished and end jo lo.. sob sob~~ waiting waiting for next holiday to come but calender shows negative dy.. haiz~ but holidays can be create d.. hehe~ hoho~ haha~ keke~

H0L!D@Y part 2..

2009-09-28T00:29:00.000-07:00

Hi tere.. Continue my holidays story la..

After Saturday is Sunday..hehe.. Early in the morning, pack all the cloth heading to Ipoh lo.. 2 car starting of Ampang @ 9am++.. Actually plan to have breakfast is somewhr around, but i give tem suggestion go Ulu Yam Bharu take "dim sum" tere a lot of ppl and quite famos.. Told dy, and they agreed..hehe so good.. Back to the old place.. But very super not the day, the shop din open so v went to opposite d restaurant to have mee as breakfast..

After breakfast, continue way to Ipoh.. Go go go~ I teach Ah Lok to go out highway from Tanjung Malim, but he later on saw some exit to Highway in the middle of the journey.. Which will be passing through Rawang.. OMG~ D stupid thing waste 1 hr to exit to the highway.. Geram.. I scold him for not listen to my word.. Coming out from Rawang, we have to pass through Tanjung Malim again.. then tat time he know tat his decision is wrong n start to give me a funny faces.. But i geram lo.. waste petrol n time..

Then continue the journey, we will turn in to Tapah not Ipoh coz wana fetch "Ah Sou" = Winnie (William's GF - woo..ing). She live in around Kampar.. She will drive a car to show her house then change to our car wen v reach her house.. There v waste some time again.. Continue back to the road.. Finally reach IPOH!! hurray.. Buz looking for my hotel Seri Malaysia.. But once our "dai lou" = william say Seri Malaysia is not human's hotel.. So v ned to spend time again to look for another hotel.. At last v hav "tai zi" hotel.. V check into the room, and get down our luggage ten wen out to meet William frend = Henry.. He bring us go makan "gya choi gai" but due to so much ppl and v r starving so much (about 3pm dy) so v cant manage to get a seat.. Finally wen to an aircond restaurant to have steak and desert as fud.. I miss the "ping guo shue yi" really nice n cheap.. RM 2 per bowl.. OMG~ can't 5 it in KL.. trust me.. it is super nice.. After having a big big chicken steak. his frend say wana bring us go makan "ham dan" crabs.. walao.. jus finish 1 big steak whr got perut to include d crabs leh?? even very tasty also cannot taste la.. waste money n time only.. Then lagi worst, have to send "ah sou" back to home, coz she say she wana back take bath.. U guys know how much time to drive back tere n ten back to our hotel?? need 2 hrs for 2 ways leh... damn "em song" lo.. suppose can go gai gai somewhr to ease the fud tat v hav.. walao.. hav to sit in the car doing ntg.. SHIT!!~
Giv her opnion come n stay vf us yau do1.. Yau say tis n tat, scare us will rape her.. nvm lo.. at night v go out for drink, she jiu drive alone to our hotel to meet us and go for drink.. super sien in tat pub.. i swear to GOD, i won go for a 2nd time.. After tat wen to hav supper b4 going back to oi oi.. Tis is my 1st Day in Ipoh, doing ntg except sitting in the car..

Holidays part 1

2009-09-24T00:34:00.000-07:00

Holidays habis jo lo.. All finish lo.. Gonna back to working and stress life..

Starting from Sat, morning heavy rain lo.. until i din go to work tim.. hehe.. Lazt d me~ Afternoon, went climb mountain vf my mom and bro.. Can't imagine tey will deco d mountain like a playground.. Too impressive.. Luv to climb tat mountain dy.. Play until eve sin back home.. Rain super heavy wen i just step into my house.. Walao.. Can't wait anymore, hav to "ban leng leng" jo.. coz gonna hav dinner vf Rudy.. V will go Tropicana Golf and Resort to have buffet dinner.. feel so excited.. Thank you RUDY.. Thanks Kelvin Yong too.. coz he is the 1 who teach me d way.. If not both "so po" really cannot reach tat place.. Step into the Tropicana gate, v saw super big house on our left n right.. until i really wish to step into the house to experience the feeling.. I wonder how many family in tat house.. Many 5 - 10 families..hehe.. blur blur d drive in slowly..enjoy the big big housing.. Finally, v reach the basement parking.. No wonder those big boss willing to pay so much for a club membership.. now i no dy la.. Coz tere really nice lo.. environment.. ten everywhr also aircond.. If din charge tem so expensive how to pay for the electric bill oh.. hohos..

Step into the makan places.. OMG~ almos faint..coz all is malay @ indian..OMG~ can't imagine such a huge group.. and tey like not having several gen of fud.. (coz is BUKA PUASA).. v register can some1 took us to our table, which is so called "booked" perhaps tere is no table for us.. Until v ned to adjust our table ourselves.. wat a joke.. After fixing the table.. d time is come.. hahahohohehe.. rampas fud.. once stand near to d fud.. OMG~~ all red color d leh.. no wonder rudy boss makan til sien dy..hehe.. i hav satay, hav nasi lemak, hav nasi goreng kampunag and mee siam (al in a small pottion la..if not whr can finish) but i also cannot finish.. haha.. cannot say really cannot finish.. is tat i feel geli jo.. makan too much red color CHILI!!
Around 9pm v go off lo.. 2 "so po" go here n tere to take picture.. I tink got ppl will say us really "shua gu" haha.. but nvm la.. will not step into it jo le ma..no ppl will recog us.. no worry.. no worry..

T0D@Y!!~

2009-09-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

Today is a super free day.. Coz all my quotation almost done.. My manager yau go oversea jo..kaka!! On all quotation, once i have make them out, I jiu SUPER free la.. Today my Malay colleague on leave lo.. until 28 September only come back.. walao super long holiday for her RAYA.. Good news is my manager also oversea til next month sin back.. wakakakaka!!!
This few days work til very late lo, coz have to rush up Beijing, Mongolia, Hanoi d trip d quotation.. I use a lot of time in translating.. I HATE translate.. Some english to Chinese really can die lo.. But anyhow, My Hainan is coming back.. hehe.. Today work out to finish my Mongolia and next will be Hainan..

p/s : whoever wana go Mongolia, Beijing, Hanoi, Hainan can come find me oh.. super good prices.. :p

GAMBATEH to me...~

14 - Monday

2009-09-13T21:26:00.000-07:00

Today.. Nothing special.. But no mood oh.. I know y i super down.. coz like no ppl will k about my tinking.. Ask me do this n tat but after that no ppl appreciate and tel me they do1 follow.. Ten wat for ask me do?? Waste my energy and mind tinking to tink for it.. No ppl will un wen some1 put in effort in someting but no ppl say thanks OR reject d feeling.. Who will know?? PPl will onli tink on temselve wan o not.. din tink d ppl who do it put in so much effort..

But nvm la.. If no ppl like it mai "suen" lo.. Cannot paksa ppl.. Mai go different way lo.. But I'm SUPER DOWN....!!!! Next time I won't do such stupid tings.. I won't start up this.. It is really hurt!! HATE the feeling.. (wana cry jo)

Next.. RAYA plan to go Ipoh.. But but till now raya is in this week, stil pending.. My IPOH will fly to I tink.. Will update if manage to go.. (but disappointed feeling come up so fast)..

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2009-09-10T01:07:00.000-07:00

wahahaha NO TITLE!!! (dono wat to write in title la)

This morning, Ah Lok come find me breakfast too.. Hehe, go pasar eat "che cheong fun".. 2 days he breakfast with me.. I thought he say only but he really can make it.. Hehe

After breakfast I ask him to fetch me go work he do1 lo.. Hate!! My colleague d bf OR hubby will fetch d.. but not in my life style..

Lunch, at first thought do1 lunch d.. but really don feel like staying in office so jiu out to McD for lunch vf my 2 colleague that is not Malay.. Haha (my new department here all is Malay)

Next week, Raya lo.. Raya planning to go Ipoh, coz Ah Lok tel me he knows tere very well can bring us go play play.. So jiu trust him la.. Waiting for Raya to come lo.. But b4 i plan, they all say go anywhr also can.. but now after i really decide wana go Ipoh, tey jiu say i will ask ask 1st, later tel u.. SHIT =.=" balia d ppl
Nvm la.. If tey do1 go i can also go vf Ah Lok d ma.. Hehe..

Dinner, now haven dinner time oh.. But tonight in Flamingo we suppose to join tey radmahdan buffet (FOC d) but but.. coz wana go vf malay tey all.. No mood jo, jiu tel tem i do1 go coz ajak family jo.. but actually no ppl ajak me.. CRY~

C U tomolo la.. now ntg to write jo.. hehe haha hoho wakakakaka (boring til crazy)

090909 D@Y

2009-09-08T18:56:00.000-07:00

H@PPY 090909... today>>> many couple will marry TOD@Y.... happy and bless them much much.. 白头到老哦!!! Now listen to MyFm, MyFm DJ is in 天后宫 on air.. walao, give us a lot of information on the spot.. they even chose 9 couples to present their 求婚 and their luv luv sweet talk.. hehe.. SW33T SW33T~

This morning, Ah Lok come find me for breakfast ah... Hehe (SW33T~) but i din
thought of 090909 tim.. I know is he also dono is 090909 and how SW33T it is.. I think he just come and find me for breakfast vf no others meaning.. But nvm.. I think jiu ok la.. Wahahahahaha~

Y'day take 1 day leave vf no permission d.. hehe.. Coz i oledi tel my manager that i will replace the leave to him today.. But now, the big big boss wana look at me deeply, so i take 1 day leave is like taking whole week leave.. Like i hav to sit here just for her to c.. If no c me jiu will die..

Ps Alex (my HR) also tel me like tis jo.. Dono wana inspect wat.. He say maybe it will come more and more deeply inspect me.. He tel me, if i hav others job opportunity i can go for it.. Erm.. wat is tis means?? Those malay can on leave watever tey 1, but me on leave vf manager permission jiu like prisoner.. Walao yeh.. nvm la, tis sat will go for interview, c wat tey offer me.. Ten i will tel my company now to raise my salary.. If tey refuse to giv me the same salary.. TEN BYE BYE!!!

GOD BLESS ME YAH~

Tired weekends!!!

2009-09-07T02:38:00.000-07:00

Saturday night after the quarrel, v went to c Final Destination 4.. Hehe.. 1 15 mins movie.. so short, hate it.. But very geli lo.. OMG~
After movie, watch TVB HK movie in my house.. continue til 1.30am..walao tired.. ten suddenly mom tel me : 2molo u go out market help yah.. hoho, i 2am sin sleep 2molo 8am hav to wake up.. OMG~
Sunday after market, i have a wonderful sleep.. hoho, from 1pm to 5.30pm coz Ah Lok need to work part time.. So tats y i got my own time oi oi at home..hehe.
After that out vf Ah Lok and Ah Choong to Hulu Langat eat Thai seafood and drink "good" 椰花酒..haha.. Ah Lok and Ah Choong is being call super good bro coz tey bron in the same yr, same mth and same date.. OMG~ wen talk also same category.. The 1st time i go tat place is vf Ah Lok, he teach drink 椰花酒 says that it is very super nice and smell good.. But wen he drink for 2 strips, he told me : walao..how come here d 椰花酒 like SHIT?? ten i laugh like hell.. Ten he stop drinking.. Y'day night, Ah Choong b4 putting tem into the mouth say us (me and Ah Lok) dono how to drink 椰花酒.. so ok, i tahan lo.. C wat he say lo. Who knows his answer is : yalo, y here d 椰花酒 smell like shit?? Holy Shit, both of them if do1 say not good buddy also no1 believe la.. Both b4 and after say d tings same d..FAINT!!
After dinner, he go call GALS for movie.. Finally, he can't get 1 of tem out.. "sat bai" hehe.. Rudy & Jenny, pls don tel him yah.. hoho, haha..
But i manage to get Mun Ee out (but give Ah Choong blame : says i bring those who have bf d gal out), so 4 of us went to watch 怪谈..OMG, super scary.. Really true, for those who have small "dam" pls pls don watch.. I watch dy, wen back home i open the light and sleep ah.. Really cannot la.. So today tired til gonna die jo lo.. Sleepy really sleepy...

My LOV3Ly Nicholas Teo張棟樑

2009-09-04T21:11:00.000-07:00

Nicholas Teo張棟樑-低調MV

B@D saturday

2009-09-04T18:10:00.000-07:00

Y'day midnight have a super big quarrel vf him on the same topic again.. Says that i think too much.. I ask him to quit smoking because it will bring harmful to him, and wish that he will be vf me the rest of the time.. Am I wrong?? Shouldn't i think that this guy will be vf me til old?? Shouldn't i think i will left to be alone if he keep on smoking.. Every1 know smoking will bring cancer.. This is the main reason that ppl will lost teir life on.. So?? I ask him to uit now because i scare he will be like my brother left me suddenly.. I know i cannot predict someting really will happen, but i wish to protect it, i wish to hold it firm so that really ntg happen to him OR even my family?? Am i wrong?? He keep on saying i think too much, think til tere yr b4, but aren't v hav to plan for future?? Y not to think future now?? I'm 23 YO oledi, wat should i do?? Shouldn't i think n plan for wat is my future?? If not i work so hard for wat?? u think is for fun?? I work so hard is coz of future?? I can climb more high, get more salary, in higher position, future life will be good.. Isn't this is wat v s worker think?? If not wat for i work for hard?? Y i study?? for those who c tis blog pls pls pls.... leave me comment, I really wana know i'm i think too much o wat??? pls!!! I'm blur..

Thursd@y 03 Sept

2009-09-03T01:17:00.000-07:00

Hi every1, jus finish design my blog.. A brand NEW blog.. Cool??? wahahahaha... Thank you RUDY so so much.. She teach me how in msn.. Thank you so so much.. Love u.. muackssssss!!!!
She very keng lo.. Once i tel her what she also can answer me.. Really Pro... "mou tak ding" ah.. hehe
Tis morning, my lady boss ask me in meeting room for a chat.. She say i can help me manager (kelvin) to do outbound well and don't mind if i ask for increment.. Means to say if i'm ok, i can bargain for me price.. wow.. Wat a great news early in the morning.. Erm.. I'm planning wat to do next.. Because this company d outbound department whr suppose to have a lot of information seems hav ntg.. Wonder whr should i start from.. How should i do and wat should i do?? Some of my colleague here is playing games only.. How should tis department being change to a full of information center?? HOW?????? blur.. will think think on it..
I tink tonight will be a normal night.. Sleep early ba.. C yah!!! ^.^

MonD@Y - 01/09/09

2009-08-31T18:42:00.000-07:00

After A long holiday today have to work lo.. but the sky like don wish us to start working so early.. hehe.. Y?? coz raining from 8.30am till now haven stop.. On the way come to office stil heavy rain.. hehe.. manage to come office safely, THANK YOU JESUS!!! I saw some minor accident on the way to office, that lady wana from 1st land to 2nd land.. so at last din notice tere is a van in 2nd land, ten CRASH~ How were u tink?? Raining so heavy hav to stop along the road, take out umbrella.. Cham!! I rather sit in my car enjoy the traffic..
How is ur holiday?? I hav a great holiday to Malacca vf Ah Lok, CY, Alex and Kelvin + Wey.. KELVIN YONG is not a good tour guide lo.. coz he many place also dono d.. He has to refer to Wey (Malacca people).. hoho.. Kelvin in ppl's heart is super in the road.. but in small little tiny Malacca hoho he can't manage to get it.. hehe
but anyhow, tey got time out to meet us is best of the best d la.. Coz Wey d family during our arrival hav to pray for the lunar 7mth.. so very buz, tey can out for awhile also consider good, appreciate it..!! Thank you Thank you!!
Hav a nice hotel, with the whole malacca town view (Hotel Emperor)it is RM 98nett ONLY, you may enjoy western + local breakfast too.. So good!! cheap cheap!! the great tings is, the hotel is just around the Famosa area, walk also can reach.. GREAT!! got time can go da.. is cheap, and i tink is for the whole ramadhan, coz is a ramadhan offer.. Took a lot of picture, will upload them in Facebook later on..

Hong Kong!!!

2009-08-28T20:20:00.000-07:00

Hong Kong is not vf me AGAIN... erggggg!!!~
stupid H1N1, gonna kill those who bring tis sicknes in.. Really gona kill tem all...
2nd time, i miss HK.. Al my frend goin to HK BUT me... stil in KUL shit
wen will be my time in HK?? any frends willing to go vf me again?? I don tink so... Haiz~
Hate it la.. really hate it much...!!! HATE!! NOT FAIR!!! going to DIE soon...

Saturd@y 29/08

2009-08-28T20:15:00.000-07:00

Today suppose not working but just transfer down and my colleague last week work dy... So i hav to work on tis sat.. Sign~ work work n work.. When wil be my holiday?? This job salary really can't support me much.. every mth don hav a single money in my acc.. I keep on asking y?? Y frend around me got high salary but i'm taking 1.2K even i hav so many working experience.. NOT FAIR!!! damn.. But now outside hard to look for job, some even collapse due to current eco.. SO SO SO??? HOW?? HOW?? HOW??
sabar sabar... later i will take bac wat i wan.. Wait for me!!!

L!F3!!

2009-08-17T20:53:00.000-07:00

LIFE is MIRACLE, LIFE is SHORT either..

On the 15 Aug 2009, after BBQ vf Ah Lok's boss & colleague.. At around 11.30pm 1 of the colleague "si ye on" went back home vf his wife.. His bb gal ususaly will put under grandparent care coz both of the are working.. That house that v hav BBQ is the bb gal's grandparent house.. 1 of the boss is "si ye on" brother in law which is stay just next to the grandparent house.. We say GOODBYE and tease on them before they left.. I watch both of them step into their MyVi.. Ah Lok tell me this MyVi is the most cheapest 1.. Nothing on it.. Just a simple car.. No additional.. Huh.. Ah Lok send me back at around 12.30am, I have a good night but Ah Lok din sleep the whole night.. Because he receie a terrible news from 1 of the colleague that "si ye on" is DIED on the spot whr their cr being bang by a drunker.. SHIT!! His wife is in crucial situation.. Now in hospital (50-50 only).. Drunker chould not allocate.. He ran away vfout his car.. Ah Lok was so pain and so do i when i have this news. I could not eat, my tears is continue to run down.. It is just same like my brother case.. Hit and DIE.. OH MY GOD.. he is such a nice man, y should he surfer this much pain b4 dying?? y those BAD ppl is stil around this world to harm GOOD ppl?? Whr is the justice?? WHERE?? WHY?? It is hurting me badly.. Another surprice..a big surprice.. Y'day so good, BBQ, happy funny.. He is the 1 who open the red wine vf full of strenght.. Means b4 he die he still serve us.. OH MY!!! :( i can't stand.. I will get crazy soon.. HELP ME!!~

Thanking D@Y!!

2009-07-14T20:55:00.000-07:00

Long time did not have a blog dy.. If say no time..erm..NO, got plenty time... I think is I lazy to write lo.. OR can say I dono what to write.. Coz in my life nothing special, everyday the same... Hehe.. Izzit good OR bad news??

Last week guess dy a great news.. 1 say vomit n I immediately think of PREGNANT.. hehe.. a bit "shui" but but wat I guess is true.. Wow!! Now pregnant and next year BB is out.. so next year is TIGER years.. wowo yeah yeah...!! My kaki leh.. Tiggler hope the mama won angry lo..

She is my best best friend and we know each other since primary schol.. Cool yah.. 15 yrs already.. BEST of the BEST!!~ Thank you for being my such a good and best friend.. After I know the truth I happy as if i'm the 1 who get BB tim.. Haha.. Mayb too close to each other so happy lo.. And i have book the 1st place to become BB "kai ma" no ppl can get it.. Hmmm!! wahahaha.. Know what, Tiggler + Tiggler = wahahaa...! CRAZY

Talking about friendship.. Walao.. Calculate>> I have a lot of long long friendship.. Like Chai Jia Jet, Ng Chin Hui, etc.. know each other when in kindergarden.. Continue to SKTM then to SMKTS boom~>> now is 23 y.o so means them and me from 4y.o till 23 y.o so it..erm..hmm.. = 20years ho?? right?? Fainted!! (Do any1 have such kind of friends??) I think it is the briliant choice that our parent sned us to the nearby school and it is the briliant choice that non of us is moving out of the area.. So can group us all Tiggler togather..Hehe..Happy lol!!

OK!! Finish today's "fei hua" hehe..tata!!

Tasik Kenyir (11 - 13 June 2009)

2009-06-15T20:07:00.000-07:00

Finally outing with family.. Long long time since my brother pass away.. Althought is 1 year but feel very long dy.. Very sayang he is not here..

Tasik Kenyir, for other people they will not think of going because that place is totally different from city life. People there relax and smile not like KL, only stress.. (Thanks for all my friends that give me the power to live up again.. If not sure stress till die jo..Hehe)

Tasik Kenyir the oldest tropical rainforest in the WOLRD..(wow!! - cant believe I have the chance to visit it) In my view, after I saw it's range I will call it SEA instead of LAKE because I can't see the end.. Nice view huh~

We start our journey on 10 June @ 11pm by bus.. Night trip in the bus for me is terrible, horrible and "vegetable".. Can't sleep at all.. Pain at the back, neck everywhere.. Plus, they having KARAOKE in the bus..(HATE!!) I sit in the 1st sit with my grandma, so I have to take care the song track (WHY?? because the decoder is in front of ME) About 2am, slept.. but awake d type of sleep.. (can guess how??) 11 June morning @ 6:00am reach Gawi Jetty, manage to see sun rise tim..Haha!! but I miss out, coz too tired.. but the driver very "what", go off the engine no more AIRCOND.. Every1 have to leave the bus.. Here is the picture manage to capture>>>

Jetty Gawi the main Jatty in Tasik Kenyir.. No1 will not know this Jetty except of people that never been there before..Hehe!!

Reach safely.. Thank GOD!! After this bad news.. They say this is not our Jetty!!! What?? Here you go..

This is OUR jetty.. NICE??

Waiting for our boat to fecth us to our resort.. For more picture go view in my facebook.. (gio_guess18@hotmail.com)

The journey took 1 hour to reach our resort.. Slow slow boat.. But is windy..I love it!! Reach resort have our breakfast.. Bubur ikan good~~~ After that i went to sleep.. Nice sleep hehe.. Afternoon, mountain climbing wih the leeches to the waterfall..OMG scare till die.. When wana back resort 'lagi teruk" raining..*HIT!! more leeche.. my leg have 2 spot being bite then 5 more being brave "abang" throw off... If not, it will be 7 spot being bite.. (now "bengkak" jo) :( Night : wonderful dinner; but leg *AMN ichi.. Sleep very early because over tired..

2nd Day, climb moutain again..This time full preparation, bring "minyak angin", wear long pants and shoes (y'day wear only slippers and short pants), get some salt and more... BUT this place have less leeche (can be say none at all) *HIT!! Haiz.. Dono take so many things for what.. Tired only.. WATERFALL..After 1/2 hour we reach.. Here just to take picture..

Today lunch in the boat - NASI LEMAK!! yum yum yummy~~ enjoy in the middle of no where with Malaysian's traditional food (ta tang>>) Nasi Lemak... Hehe

Back resort KAYAKING.. till now balck jo.. :( People use to say, when you do something right OR wrong you will get the result.. Now i un jo, enjoy "kayak" in the sun so mai black jo lo.. Haiz.. Really nice feel, when feel tired to kayak, just let the off and it will go slow slow by itself.. then that moment, really in the middle of no where, alone.. No nothing, only heard the sound from the forest around.. PEACE and FREEDOM come to my mind.. Really realxing.. Really miss that feeling..

After "kayak" sure that picture on the surounding la.. Those elder people stay in the living room for karaoke, those small kids play "hide and seek".. ME?? kira youngster..wahahaa.. mai take picture alone lo.. What to do?? but even alone doing this things but i feel super happy.. Maybe I love nature so so much, did not think about lonely or what.. That is me..Enjoy o be alone that got people control..keke..

Dinner, BBQ!! Thought we have to stabnd togather and really BBQ like in KL but got people help us BBQ.. No need we hot hot.. They really "san fu".. (Thank you ABANG.. You all are so so great..) Got "kai yek", got "yeong pa", got "suk mai" & got "muk shu".. Good!! All is nature, without chemical.. So great!! Healthy.. Normally, human when went to 1 place that is new many will have problem on going toilet.. But here weird, every1 manage to go.. Hehe!! Maybe the surrounding is peace and self feel is great and healthy.. so easy a bit gua.. Night fall fast, 2nd day end.. Tonight, sing k with them.. Dance and rejoice in the middle on the forest.. Haha.. Those animal follow us to sing k too.. A lot of encho..

Morning.. Wana go back stress city jo lo.. Take more picture, I took picture with chicken and chicks, duckiee, doggy, the trees, resort living rooms, resort makan (dining) room, resort kitchen, the boat and many many more.. They busy chit chatting, some busy doing 'yoga', kids busy run here and there while ME busy super busy with my camera.. Haha!! My special weapons.. I ask people to give me his seat where he is on the chair for fishing.. (take picture only - posting like i'm the 1 who fishing) hehe... I even have a chance to drive that boat tim.. Keng leh!!

After picture, "kayak" again.. Last time.. Bring my little brother along.. He sits in front and I'm at the back who do the "kayak".. He just relax.. Enjoy the surrouding.. Now more longer journey till 2 hours leh.. TIRED till die.. The rewards is happy and thank GOD that I manage to "kayak" back to resort..

Bath.. Then go off lo.. BYE to the resort.. BYE to all ABANG.. BYE to the tree.. BYE to the chickens and chicks.. BYE to the 2 little cute puppy.. BYE to the fishes.. BYE to the river.. BYE to the animals.. BYE everything and every1.. Will gonna miss you like crazy!!

W3DN3SD@Y 10/06/2009

2009-06-10T02:37:00.000-07:00

Long time no blogging jo.. Gonna give many people scold...hehe
Ntg special for me these days.. but adicted in facebook d Restaurant City and Farm Town.. Walau if in the real world I have restaurant and have farm... i think i will be a super rich women...HAHAHAHAHA!!! hehe
Today last day working for this week.. Because i'm going to Tasik Kenyir vf my family..Very exciting oh, but feel tired because tonight 10.30pm will depart reach tere morning.. Sleep in the bus.... :( don like at all.. hard to sleep la.. Hope tat make myself very super tired before entering d bus.. So i'm super briliant that i decide to go FITNESS tonight.. HAHAHA!! i can sleep very well in the bus if not tomorrow i "pengsan"
Haiz, go vf family ah lok yau din go..Stupid d!! HATE him.. Ask him go like go Hell. DO1 FREND HIM dy... i think i will be missing him so much.. BUT he... i think he will plan super many programe outing vf frend be KING.. Who can help me stare at him?? no1 la... I DO1 la... :(
After this trip i will post my picture in facebook d la.. No worry yah guyz.. Hehe.. I know many people dont go before OR some even worst dint think about going tim.. Haiz, but tis is super good for health.. TRUST ME!!
Tata la.. times out jo..

INHUM@N B3ING W0RLD!!

2009-05-11T21:29:00.000-07:00

Animal?? Dog?? Bird?? Pig?? What is all this in your mind??

Animal vs Human.. (bang bang bang)

Who is sinners?? Does animal deserve to live in this cruel world that will kill them with a single reason??

In overseas, people use to kill whale, penguin.. Why do they do so?? What so jealous on this 2 kinds on living beings?? After you kill them, what will you get?? In the world of seas, they did not offence the law OR did not attack human being..So i don't think and not agree they deserve to be sack like this..Where is all the heart??They really can do it without hard feeling..Why such this people can perform without conscience.. Should they being punish??

In Malaysia, people treat animal such as dogs, pigs..like hell. HOW?? Owners that owns pigs, for profit they inject OR feed them eat shit so that they can grow in the size of humans imagination. But all this will affect the pigs health..When things become worst, the pigs is the one who being blame. But why humans did not think that it was them who turn this situation out??They put all the blame into the pigs..Hey hey, can anyone tell me can pigs think??If can think can they do whatever they like?? If can also, can they talk and voice out?? RUBBISH.. Humans think pigs can do what they want.. If so i think the pigs will not been born as pig.. When trouble comes all blame the animals, but when they helped humans did they say thank you?? NO~

Dogs: Some dogs is owners beloved, some dogs is just a soldier with a super nature weapon, some dogs is a mouse where scare to walk, be around in this world and they even prefer hunger till death, they still don't want to step out from where they are to suffer such "baka" pains; AT LAST some dogs being human MEALS.. People say: Humans ancestor is monkey..but why can't people think our ancestor maybe is dogs??Why i say so? Because dogs have much more feeling than the humans..They know how to appreciate the people that treat them good..They know how to rescue someone / his owners that is in trouble..They sense of danger is high..They can protect people when in danger..They know how to response to people when someone "sayang" / scold it.. Lastly, They even obey rules and regulations.. Isn't all this is a human character??NO..Should say, isn't this is all human needed character??Humans born with love, with conscience, with moral, with understanding..but humans now have nothing is just demons act..NO love, NO conscience, NO moral and NO understanding.. Humans sack dogs because they not clean..not obey rules..love to bark..and many many more..Blame them for being so useless.. FOR me, i will think is humans USELESS not the dogs, pigs, cat etc..How come some dog can be so profession??All this is the result of training..If your pets do not obey you, don't blame it stupid..should blame yourself STUPID.. This is nothing about the dogs.. If it is not their fault, why should people sack them?? Why should people treat them like shit?? No point what..Why can't human being think that, animals are also living being??They have heart, kidney, everything just like humans..SAME!!

If one day this kind of action happen in a human, what will you think?? One day, you notice someone dare to sack you like what happen to the animals, what will you do?? When one sack those innocence animals, they will sure shut their mouth because they are all crying and begging them not to sack them.. So if this situation happen to HUMAN how??

Chinese say "ying guo bao ying" isn't this true?? If yes, why they still do it??Why people dare to do this?? WHAT purpose?? WHY?? Dear friends..Please leave my comment, how should this being settle...

Story Telling!!~

2009-04-28T02:20:00.000-07:00

I recently knew a girl.. This girl is a normal girl.. Her name: xxx (sorry i can't tell)..
Her family is ok all is good.. but her love life is scary.. Cannot say scary la.. Just that the feeling is scary j..

She meet her bf for 2 yrs.. In this 2 yr, they have sweet and sour memory.. The guy that she know like to gamble.. 1 day he tell xxx that he lose 4 thousand something.. Ten because of this he need to work triple, work triple is ok.. but while he work he gamble again.. In total, lose 6k.. Then nvm.. My frend keep on stand beside him support him..never think of leaving him alone. He has no idea where to pay off this debt.. The last action is to lend "ah long".. If didn't pay, the interest will raise from 0 to 100... Haiz..

Now everything is settle.. But his bf still go to those place and lie to my frend say he is at home.. At last she know dy, wana him to leave that place immediately.. This is very normal, ppl say "kin gou guai zhong em pa hak meh" really scare he will gamble again.. And everyting repeat again..
But her bf scold her back.. Say do1 tel her is good for her but in my opinion, lie is more hurt than the reality.. She tell me that she willing to know the truth than the lie.. but her bf tell her, every guy also will lie.. Which guy is not lying.. I think he say those words is much much irresponsible.. He is the one who lie and wrong but he blame her gf say that she dono him.. OMG..if my frend really don k him n un him how will she keep on stand vf him for so long?? For me early oledi break jo lo.. She say got tink wana break vs him.. but dono y feel very sad than no break..

Can giv comment??TQ!!

Chatting dayS~

2009-04-17T00:48:00.000-07:00

Days went to 3rd week of April... My bro incident had pass 1 yr (chinese calender).. Any1 still remember this incident?? Hope so yah..
Change to this operation team, can feel the stress.. Wana to check rate and check hotel availability.. The hardest are wana to tell agent which hotel we din't highly recommend... Ned to push them away from what they request.. Daily stress.. Erm... this job except daily stress, it will led me to a wonderful chatting with the agent too.. I learn a lot of their language.. Let me teach you all:
1) Salam Sob Bekhir = Hi & Good Morning
2) Salam = Hi
3) Khahesh Mikonam = Welcome
4) Merci Azizam = Thank You
5) Afarin = Bravo
6) Azizma = My Dear
7) Bahoosh = Clever
8) Khodahafez = Bye / God Bless
9) Khoda = GOD
10) Asre Bekheir = Good Afternoon
11) Asr Shoma Ham Bekheir Doost Man = Good Afternoon My Friend
12) Merci Golam Shoma Ham Khasta Nabashid = Nice To Hear From You
13) Khobi = How Are You?
14) Khobam Merci = I'm Fine Thanks
15) Dorost Gofti = You Are Right

So far only these few... Hehe.. Now once open chat with agent, i will use "salam" then continue.. Hehe.. They all say i bravo.. Haha.. I like others language i think they are cute.. What you think??

M3 in this day

2009-04-03T18:27:00.000-07:00

2 days after my blog.. Ntg special going on.. Working, home, sleep... Tis is the normal life la. Last 2 night i was alone at home coz ah lok(my bf) got extra work at night in pavillion. At 1st he told me very simple coz onli 1 lot...but BUT they use 2 days to finish the work..(dono izzit "snake" then cannot finish) Nvm lo.. relax at home is ok for me too.. Listen to music, read comic books. (i have lend a lot of comic book to see when free) hehe.. Quite enjoy n luv to have this feel. Last time use to go out cannot stya at home, maybe now oledi old n working..hehe So like to be in peace and relax type. Olden days like to go clubbing (coz new to it, feel very song but now NO more lo..sein dy) I dono my thinking now in my age is suitable or not la, but this is my thinking lo. A bit like ah ma jo..hehe
Y'day got ah lok teman me walk pasar malam.. I can feel that his luv to me is more n more.. Dono leh, just feel it stronger jo.. Hehe!! Last time he won't hold my hand so so long.. But now he willing to hold it until we MUSt separate (toilet, car, house) Haha.. Happy lo..
Thanks GOD to let me have him in my life.. Although he is smoking n like gamble (last time, now no more) but it is enuf that he is real to me. A lot of guy that out look n action is gud to u but at last also hurt u. I hope that this thing won't happen to me..PRAY~

17 Feb 2004 NS C@MP (reverse)

2009-04-01T02:11:00.000-07:00

1st step into the camp site, feel terrible (coz i'm late to report myself, those who have report on 16 Feb 2004 were having teir lunch in the cantin. 1st step into the camp is the cantin.. A lot of eye looking at me n my family. I dono which way to head for report, well i chose to ask people than stand tere looking at those eyes. The person incharge of the cantin bring me to the office..OMG, is this office (coz it has onli 3 desks where onli 1 is occupied) I went to the officer to inform him my case and came to report myself. After assigned, i'm in H2 camp. It is the last camp on the farest top of the hill(gal's hill-separate from guy's hill) Bring all my belonging and step into a canvas camp. Every bed has its owner where as the bed that was counted as 1st had no1. I was blur and don't dare to ask regards on the owner, my mom help me to ask 1 of the campmate "mei hua" she speak like "big boss-gal" hehe.. At 1st i feel scare, wah..so rude the people. Everything settle, my parent have a look on the toilet and surrounding. After that, they got to go coz is almosy evening. It is dangerous to drive at nite where a long journey to reach KL. Say goodbye with them with a big big hug and hold my tears. My mom cry (this moment is unforgetable for me) Their car had drove further and further until i can't see tem anymore. I put my step back to my camp, pack things out and prepare for bath. Walao, haven try to take bath with "sarong" and with big group. Dono how and feel someting not right..(haha, live in big city for 17 yr, who will experience bath with "sarong" and bath with big group?) Anyhow, look at how others make it ten follow. If really can't stand can bath in the toilet but the toilet is super small (i 've try b4 until hurt my hand because too narrow and hands will hit the wall when turning) so so after all take bath outside with "sarong" (my mom had prepare an easy "sarong" with rubber on the top which means no ned to tie the "sarong" like Malay) hehe..easy easy!!(don envy, tis onli can be think by my mom) haha.. Rite.. 1st nite, scary and unforgetable. Being call for dinner and going down the hill alone where haven intro myself to my campmate.. "Riang Riang" in my pronounce "gei gei" haha.. is the most killing our heart's insect. It will appear at night and it's all on the dark hill road. When i step down the hill, walking from the left change to the right, then to the center at last use run to reach the cantin( all the road full with "gei gei"- when you step near them or step on them, they won die they will ring/cry/shout: geee..geee..geee..) Try and see, if you 1st time been to a place, and it was dark out tere, you are alone walking down, with those weird sound keep on ring/sreaming/cry/shouting.. what will you express?? Shout? Cry? Run? haha.. Thinking that reach cantin will be great who knows.. Now, don ever think b seeing something terrible.. Know what..the whole cantin is those "gei gei".. heard from tem, "gei gei" can see tey follow lights. Hei, cantin sure bright lo..so so thousand million of tem in there..OMG!! My 1st dinner is like war's skipper.. "gei gei" is bullet.. hehe Sit with my campmate and others people. I remember there is a "gei gei" stick in my shirt, i scare til whole rice being throw and at last "mei hua" help to take it off.. Their sound very terrible. After dinner back to camp and try not to go to toilet. Inside the toilet got a lot of "gei gei"..
The next day separate to groups, each group will have 2 trainer. We have to chose leader for our group. So lucky, all my campmate (chinese) same group with me. So so this build up our frendship. We play, sleep, eat 2gather. I was the oldest in my group (onli gal) if + in guy i'm not.. but i'm very useless 1. keep on sick, so every1 very worry me as specially "mei hua" - big sis, "bee giok" - 2nd sis, "pei yee" - 3rd sis. Gud sis..while guy i met "fue xiang", "ady", "yong han", "kelvin" & "ah foong". "ah foong" and "yong han" were the guys tat k my much much..others also got la..but the most is this 2 lo. At tat time feel warm da. hehe..
Time pass and pass, 9 of us use to jog, play, breakfast, lunch, dinner togather. Coz i sick oways, my relationship with those medic also very super good. If have free time, all 9 of us will just stay in medic and chit chat with medic ppl. Good gang.. funny gang.. Time pass fast, 2 month pass so fast (coz we are too enjoy) is the time we should back to UITM, shah alam..for our last 1 month training. In camp situation change, everyting being guide much (cannot go out, cannot go here n tere. hate!!) BUT BUT with the help of "mei hua" we manage to have our gathering with the guys at night.(but juz outside the park onli) Also enuf la. In our last month every1 expose to luv luv life. Hehe!! relationship from normal ppl, change to frend, change to best best frend at last to couple. Tat time me n ah foong is very super close, 2 of us will share fud or drinks togather. very enjoy but v r not couple (i also dono y). All my frend tel me that he likes me n me too but v din not start to go further. Is this call "you yuan mei fen"?
Time pass by, is time to say bye bye.. We hug n cry coz do not want to separate. haha, really thank GOD, every1 "mei hua" from sitiwan work in KL at last, "bee giok" from taiping study in TAR college.. while guys all is KL ppl. The onli changes is "pei yee" stil in hometown and "ah foong" went back to his frend lifestyle (rupa rupa "ah foong" like his church frend dy-no wonder v cannot start..but i dono d thing is that we suppose have feeling to each other but tey say he got another like d gal) dono la, oledi pass.. Our gang now, still the same. "fue xiang" n "bee giok" is 1 pair and now working happily in their area, "mei hua" oledi marry n stay in setiawan, "kelvin" buz vf work, "yong han" working in computer shop vf his lolver", "ady" marry too, "ah foong" in oversea for study, "me" hehe same lo..no change
GOOD EXPERIENCE!! GREAT TO BORN IN 1986

2008 incident

2009-04-01T02:01:00.000-07:00

01/01/2008 went to countdown with frend but at last "lose in the jungle (people)"haha.. nvm nvm, lose also nvm BUT the most terrible is that i hav LOST my PHONE too. my Z610i(sob sob) i jus buy and use for 2 month only, lost jo.. BAD year. 1st day of 2008 oledi lost a phone. Dare not to tink any more. Went home alone, cry for days for my luv phone.
Above oledi stated 2008 not a good yr for me.. Lost phone on the 1st day and lost my beloved bro (20 Apr 2008), make everything change. My thinking and my action. Use to speed while driving, use to play violence on the road..haha NOW no more lo, scare.. Day day wondering can i wake up the next morning? Thank GOD that i can wake up.. Thinking what is the feeling when die? Did i still remember everything? How will it feel? remember on my bro funeral, there are people able to see my bro standing beside his coffin. DO you think he know what is happen to him? Can he hear that we are very sad? Will he able to hear our conversation? He can walk..erm floating to everywhere? This is what i keep on floating in my mind. Before sleep i will say thanks and think a lot of this question. My brother accident really change me and this is the news that i can't accept until now. Remember he told me on 18 Apr 2008, he will be going to climb "lembing mountain-kuantan" with his frend. I have no comment coz ntg wrong ma. But got some arguement b4 he step out, he did not use luggage bag to fill in his shirt, he use plastic bag. So i say him: house got so many luggage bag you do1 use, why wana take plastic bag so ugly. At last onli i say he continue do. Haiz, nvm lo!!He like (big jo ma) BUT i don't know that this is the last time i argue vf him. Form young til the last day i use to argue with him, no mater on what tings. On fud-he like to steal my fud and don let me have it, On tv-like to change my tv programme, all tis lead us big fight, i remember than we've fighted where almost use knife tim. At last ntg la, if anyting will c us in newspaper jo lo..haha.. watever we also argue and rampas. Dono why, olden people say "long hu dou" dragon n tiger sure fight d.. SURE?? Although we fight n rampas everyting this does not means we are not close.. we argue coz we are to alike, he like the tings i like,, i like the tings he like. So So.. Sometimes, will share feeling and will seeks help from each other.. He will wait me home if i back home late.. So sweet~
No more now.. No such ting happen.. Everyting change from the time his body went into the flame.. The most hard feeling is that saw his body in the hospital, recognized that is him.. with no cloth onli short pants. Whole body hard, icy, cool. Blood still fresh on his head. Can't stand the situation, onli non stop call him n cry.. B4 dept to Kuantan to recognized the body, oledi pray n set in mind it is not him. certainly not. Fate is fate no matter how we change not to think it is FATE dy, cannot change. All hope blow off when saw him lying tere vfout movement. I know that cant change dy.. NO more hope. Continue his document, take back his phone and belongings. Transfer him back to KL, sitting in the "coffin" car keep on calling his name ask his soul to follow us. Cry like hell!! reach home 12am while ntg being done (those setting) he being leave in the car while we checking on the setting. He's being transfer out from car while i hav to search for his picture that can b put in front of the coffin. I found a lot but not suitable. At last use a photo take show his head "senget" because this photo is the take with other gal. No choice co he don hav others. Praying ceremony start morning, phone call looking for him keep on ringing (his boss) call to us n ask y my bro din report to work, i tel him he is not here anymore, he thought im kidding.. At last he believe coz i cry non stop. I can't tel out like normal ppl that my bro has past away. Hard feel come out faster than ever. Relative all come n advise us. Ask us not to sad. But non of tem manage to stand not to sad. Every1 cry when step into my house OR after seeing my bro in the coffin. His relationship vf the relative is good so every1 know him much.. At nite, frends (church) and his best frend all come to pay teir respect.. All cry like hell, then tey went up to my bro room to keep his tings and say which to take some of his ting s rememberance. I say ok, can take watever things. Last day, my bro facial expression change from reverage expression to smiling look. I tink he was satisfy and happy that his frend all come pay teir respect and all relative too. Mayb he satisfy dy. So he smile n left. Last day, got musical come n i wish tem to play SHE song coz my bro luv tem very much. While play d SHE cd wen sending him to the fire burial in cheras. My parent cant go, his "heng dai" help to take up his coffin to the car (coz tey say wana help seng chau-my bro to do someting) really best frend. me n my little bro who is d 1 who start the prayer followed behind. Reach the fire burial place, prayer start and the monk tel us to call his name when his coffin being move down to the fire, after prayer, the monk press down the button and we gather to the area n call out his name.. My face all cover by tears. I faint at last!!
This is what i get in yr 2008, 4 yrs after my grandfather this is the most unacceptable experience i had. I don dare to tink on what is my future and tis n tat. If i can live 1 more day i will do s much s i can..

Reverse~blogger

2009-04-01T01:07:00.000-07:00

13 Feb 2004 dinner with my grandpa & all the relative (we, youngster help tem to celebrate OLD FOLKS VALENTINE NIGHT)..Coz i hav to join national service camp on 16 Feb 2004 so tast nite my grandpa tel me a lot of tings. Hold my hand close to his heart and advise me to take very good care on myself when joining the camp. Make me cry a lot coz i don feel like joining the camp (to me that camp is very super scary-but at last do1 end the camp, coz meet a lot of frend that willing to take k each other good experience) The next day 14 Feb 2004 (Valentine day-although no bf but still ajak a group of frend outing) on the way to my outing, receive a super emergency news. My grandpa stop breathing while on the way to hospital. I'm blank i dono what to do and say. My frend head the car to HUKM, my grandfather is in the emergency room. Doctor say will try best to save him, doctor say he had stop breathing jus now so now rescueing him. I pray hard that he can wake up and talk to me, cook porridge for me when i'm sick. Bring me out gai gai, drive me back from schol, drive me back to overnight in his house (happy stay with grandparent coz more freedom, they will give what we ask for) BUT i manage to saw him with a white cloth wrapped over him. Tis is d 1st time I saw this scenery. I dono want to use what situation to descripe the situation. In movie we can saw it easily, but not personal experience can't express the feeling. My dad say not to cry, buddhist (same s christian hope not to cry must smile to accept-if not the late people will not leave) who can do it? our beloved not here anymore, do you think normal people can stand not to cry. After getting know, we can cry by dropping our tears without sound. I cant accept the truth coz he is the person who chat vf me so so much y'day nite, how COME? In his funeral, i stand beside him to accompany him until his last day (16 Feb 2004-the day that i should report to my camp) I remember the hard feeling i have on the last day when we have to turn over when they close the coffin. Once the coffin is close means everything end.. I struggle with them i do1 to end i want to be with him. At last, silly very silly..HOW can a dead person stay alive? follow to the grave yard end of the ceremony.. My dad is the biggest so he commit every prayer.. Sadly report to camp on 17 Feb 2004, my uncle n my grandma, n my family drive me to Gua Musang camp site..(will write on NS experience in the next blog) 1 week after (i had sick teruk), i have a dream from my grandpa ask me to be strong and take good k. He want me to be happy and help to take k my family n my grandma. This dream continuosly the 2nd nite. In the dream i was walking along a long path where tere were many people resting on their bed. Until the end of the path, is my grandpa (1st dream is waving to me-welcoming me) (2nd dream, he is resting in his bed while i call him to wake up) the message he give me was the same. Is just that the action that he show is not same. The same path, the same situation where every1 is smiling towards me happily so do my grandpa. I call back to my parent to tel them regards this dream, tey say no1 had all this dream. Ask me really have to take k and my grandpa was looking on me everytime every minute. The dream last for 2 nite onli, day after no news from him. Wondering where he go? Will he continue by my side? Will he no that i'm so suffer in camp(keep on sick-coz of weather; morning til evening super hot but nite very super cool)

Losing a luv 1 has super great impact.

01 April (APRIL FOOL)

2009-03-31T23:34:00.000-07:00

Hello, I'm Candy. Hope to find more advise in my matter oh.. "duo duo zi gao" 1st time blogging here.. Well...~
start from y'day nite ba..:
Y'day nite my colleague last day oh. So whole office plan to celebrate vf him, oledi plan dy d n oledi tel ah lok(my bf) super early but y'day afternoon (lunch time) he call me n ask me don go. Walao, i oledi confirm everything ten now ask me don go. Haiz, i back to office n tel tem but tey say : har??he is ur "si fu" oh..u really do1 go meh? At last hav to go too. ten jiu argue vf ah lok again lo, i tel him i don like being "fang fei gei" so many time. Ten he say i put him last space, i cry jo half an hour coz of his word. Mayb he tink is nvm to say those word out but for me really hurt. If i really don k him at 1st i won tel him tis n tat. I will onli go ahead vf all my plan. RITE?? He no i cry dy n i scold him teruk teruk...,at last he join me n my colleague "stemboat" in gasoline.. (oh ya, for those dono d gasoline, hulu langat-look out point got new steamboat jo. very nice n fresh d. can go try) But my mood also very down coz my car cannot START again.. Haiz, dono y!!HATE lo~~ While in steamboat dinner receive a funny part time job sms from my frend, i very clever lo know how to read clearly d sms din step into april fool trap.
01 April, coz car cannot start ah lok let me use his car. Although y'day he treat me like tat BUT he teat me also gud d. Hehe!! On the way to breakfast, i send d part time job sms to all my frend (remember today is April Fool) hehe All my frend either sms or call me back for the job detail, tey din not read sms clearly, tey should scroll down to view all but tey don. Huh, is like tat d la, once ppl c RM 150 per day will oto call or sms me d la.. Wakakakakakakaka~ Really "ben ben".. Tis is d 1st time my April Fool so success..Hehe!! SOrry my "jiu mui", n "heng dai" la..haha very funny.. Waiting for next April Fool (dono tey will stil believe or not) Hope tey forget dy la..Haha